If I do not heal, there will be nothing left of me! My pieces are fragmented, someone, please help me!
I've cried out to God, went to church faithfully, fasted, and paid my tithes, why do I still want to end my life? Nothing is helping. Changing my hair, wearing make-up every day, the relationship, or my new job could not change how I felt about my life. I could not escape it. As much as I ran, it always found me. I am okay for so long, then it begins again. I want to feel better about myself. I want to enjoy my life, but I can not get beyond this thorn in my flesh.


Have you ever thought about or done any of this? I did countless times. I questioned my existence more times than a few before I knew I was battling what you would call depression. There was a pain that left me gasping for air. There was a deep need for help that went unnoticed. I expected someone to have the answer to my problem, and when no one did, I felt rejected. Everything made me cry. Many saw my tears as a sign of adoration for them, but they were not. Some of those people I did not care for like that. Coping mechanisms muzzled those internal screams until nothing worked. I had built an immunity to a lot. I needed a more substantial hit, but even I had limits.
My battle with depression was one I fought for decades. Internally, a war was raging, and I could not take it anymore. I was so tired of fighting that it seemed easier to die or numb my feelings. Trying to stay strong for my daughter, I faked it as long as possible. Sadly, she witnessed my breakdowns, but I am grateful she also saw me heal. I learned most unpleasantly what working out my soul's salvation meant for me. It took thoughts of swallowing gasoline before I went within and saved myself.
Alone In The Dark will show you glimpses of the depressive experiences I have faced and how I coped, only to look for a way out time and time again. Read page by page as I offer holistic methods to break painful cycles of your life if you can relate.
Your time is now, you owe it to yourself!