This first time author Neth Rushlo depicts, with extensive detail, the confusing and often painful "coming out" process that gay people face. Jean-Claude takes a hard look at how his first love influenced his life in ways that he could never have imagined more than 20 years later.

In this story a young 17-year old begins his journey of sexual identification while serving in the US Army. The debates Jean-Claude has in his head dealing with the fear of coming out to his family, being "found out" in the military, falling for his best friend and eventually finding his first love. The turmoil of going between the straight and gay worlds while trying to preserve long-term relationships as a civilian after the Army. Along his journey there are sexual encounters, boyfriends, infidelity, work, and a few drag queens along the way.