83 At the time when the moral struggle and the armed struggle were mixed before the genocide, each one commanded himself to prepare for a life of captivity. The LTTE was the paradigm of control and discipline, the best of all the movements fighting for the liberation of the world. I lost everything and I vowed to die with friends in my 11th birthday. From preschool to university, none of my close friends were alive. Migratory life - migratory life for the past 33 years - has continued behind me. I used to live in the face of it all on the long road to life. I used to live and disappear, live and die, and today I am not afraid to sneak or live upright. When the body and mind are in a state of disrepair, there is something that the Tamil community can do to live in hope. From 85 to the present day, many poems and articles in life disappeared. It is not possible to search magazines. To search if the conductors and collectors are alive. What to look for in men who struggle to survive. If the library and the writings I have collected have dissolved in the past and in the past, the freedom of the press, the killing and the burning of books by the chauvinist state continues to this day. There is still hope that everything can be memorized and written down. I have told a hundred poems and stories about the life of the Eelam War and the day-to-day agitation by the chauvinist state. I have documented the Tamil view of the diaspora as a verse and love poetry.